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Hmmm. Well, that’s interesting.
Othila… Heritage.
Ma (r)…feeling like a lost child
Thuriz (r) … unprotected.
Turning Ma & Thuriz right side up. Love of the Goddess, love in general for Ma and protection from Thuriz. All coming out of heritage. Me thinks something odd might come up today? LOL. We’ll see.
lol…ok. Some days I just don’t understand
Coming from Ti-yes, this I get perfectly. I have been struggling to focus, and I notice that it’s gotten a little better late last night & this morning.
Action, Ing…GETERDONE! Male energy in harmony for accomplishing stuff.
But, outcome Rit reversed? ~sigh~ more stagnation? This I don’t get. I rather like Rit right side up…everything moving, dancing in creation. I think I shall just ignore the reversal and go dance in my shop.
I’ve been out of sorts the last couple of days. I’ve seriously cut back on cigarettes…with the idea of either quitting entirely, or at least getting it down to 3 or 4 a day. With Rob’s heart attack, I got scared. I’m still scared for him, and this is a fucking horrible addiction. Sad thing is, I still don’t really want to quit. I want to smoke a couple now and then because when I DO only have a few, I enjoy them immensely. Go figure.
Anyhow, I’m out of sorts in general. I have become involved with someone who seems to be completely devoted to me. I have quite a bit of stock for the Sherwood show. The worrisome trees have been cut down. Really, the only thing not working is the money shit (as usual) and Tommy is still living here. I have told him he could be here as long as he needed, and I honor that…but I sure wish he’d get this project completed and get out. He’s got a place to go, so it’s only this project holding him up. And me. So much for all the money I was going to make doing the poly. He’s changed the design some, and I’ve got it down to a science, so it’s barely $20/booth, instead of the $40/booth I counted on. That’s just about the amount I’m short too. Almost made it…once again. ALMOST. I’m fucking tired of “almost” making it, whatever “it” describes at any given time.
Soooo- coming from Othila. Bringing clarity – heritage. Oh YEAH. My mother spent her life “almosting”. Barely getting by. What few comforts she created for herself came at great suffering and bitter self denial the rest of the time. Yep. That’s me.
Action came out Rit (r)…. no journeys today, inner or outer? Stagnation. Well, that sorta describes my condition, but definitely isn’t a good plan of action I don’t think. Turning it right side up and chanting the Rune w/power sentences
Outcome Pertha (r) Inner shadow will show me? I hope so. I keep trying to change things that look negative. I just wonder why I can’t create the changes actually HAPPENING.
Coming from Ing…and that makes sense. I HAVE been getting things done. I just need to keep up my momentum!
Action: Jera…. SOW THOSE SEEDS! Yes. It’s vital I keep a positive outlook, do what I know to do, and tap on any negative stuff coming up. Seriously need to tap on Sherwood…this show WILL work for me!
Outcome: Laff…. Cool! Finding trust in life? Never thought it could happen, but actually, I AM finding trust…in the process. In relationship, in myself most of all.
Coming from Wyne…joy. Ok, I think I AM joyful. External stimulus is bringing it I believe, but it’s THERE, and getting used to actually feeling good (emotionally) again is wonderful.
Action…Ur… I love this Rune. Pacha Mama- Earth, being one with all that is nature; healing, strength. Yes!
Outcome: Jera…Harvest Rune. All is plentiful. I am learning to live in abundance. I am learning to trust that all is well, no matter what is going on. I continue to sow my seeds to the Universe, and it continues to provide. I am learning that I AM provided for, even in my darkest times…somehow, it all works out.
Coming from Mannaz…interesting considering the conversation I just had w/Tommy. Being connected to higher self… not something I feel particularly adept with, yet somehow I have gotten to believe that I am somewhat aware at least.
Action: Asa- again, considering the conversation, amazing. I was just expressing how I don’t feel like I am creative…more a skilled mimic. Hmmm. This was not self-deprecating… I truly believe that my skill IS in my ability as a crafts person…not in “creating” art… and it drives me crazy because I WANT to be creative…artistic.
Nit (r) as outcome… unexpected luck. ? GOOD luck I hope. 
Pulled on the 16th, but never got time to post, so I’m doing it on the 17th.
Coming from Nit- Ok, evidence that I’ve been having help in the real world.
Rit(r) as action. Hmm. Stagnation… not a day to start anything major I guess. (Turns out this was accurate…grrr)
Thuriz – I think I was protected from physical sickness somehow.
So I have become involved with someone who seems so incredibly perfect. Again. I know…eyes open, right? And he has a heart attack within the first month of our being “together”. Naturally, I’m freaked…and naturally I want him to do all the stuff that the doc says, plus do natural healing, and most of all, QUIT SMOKING. He’s in the hospital and growling and bitching about wanting a cigarette, and not quitting, etc. My reaction is…WTF do I do now? Do I want to stay involved in this? He’s gonna kill himself in no time, why go through the heartbreak, etc. So I pulled Runes. Here’s what came up:
Coming from Ma- love of the Goddess,
Action - Wyne -Joy,
Outcome Gifa- Love & Friendship
Ok. Plain enough for me.
Why are my Runes always coming out backwards? lol
Coming from a reversed Eh…. hmmm. Well, there always seem to be power issues around here with him. No matter what I do or say, he thinks I’m trying to manipulate or control him. He always has thought that. And … with that comes the negativity, … BUT, over the last day it hasn’t been real prevalent, so I’m not sure what’s at work here. Otherwise, my day was exceedingly positive yesterday and last night. IF I turn Eh right side up, it makes much more sense for the recent time. While I’m not jumping in like I always have, this current situation does indeed appear far more loving, far more nurturing than anything I’ve seen in quite awhile. But then, they always seem that way in the beginning. lol. I’m keeping an open mind and heart, AND I’m taking care of me.
FA for action! I will chant Fa all day. YES! I’ve had some fabulous periods of prosperity recently, for me anyway. I am trusting all will be ok, and aware that right now it looks pretty bleak…but I’m not letting that stop me or paralyze me. Somehow, it always works out.
Pertha reversed… Ok. I’m watching for the “inner shadow”. More information is always welcome.
Moin moin…. wow. Isma typed that to me yesterday, and how I’ve missed that!
Coming from Hal… go figure…lol. Makes sense after yesterday’s conversation w/him. It was not “ugly” exactly, and I think Asa was working overtime because somehow I got it through that the way he’s been picking at me and talking to me simply isn’t logical. I, on the other hand, have been reacting – that’s how the convo started. I apologized for my being a bitch recently in response to his crap. I hate who I become when I let that stuff get to me. I saw evidence of Asa in my beads last night too…. Yr’s influence? I read the damn tutorial and went through the steps properly instead of giving up. I got awesome beads.
Action today: Asa…. ok, so welcome my muse for the beads, and speak from the heart if speaking is required.
Pertha for outcome….seeing what is and was? Well, I have quite the fodder for THAT in my current private life! WHAT a contrast, and Connie….DON’T drag the baggage into this. It isn’t required!
